What if i turned to you and confessed that i liked you. Would you turn away and pretend nth happened or tell me you like me too?
Okay, i think i did fall for you, Caleb. Or you prefer Khalaf.
First we met as strangers, then you were just practically teasing when you gave yr number. When Fana texted you, i'm like 'wtf'. But sooner i was thankful that fana had texted you using my hp. i got to know someone better from the rest. A gentleman. I still remembered he did once told me, "Girls deserve the best". He made me forgot about Randy and all. He was the first to wish me happy birthday, or was it Amirah? xD I enjoyed texting him and all. He made me feel as though i was myself rather than someone i'm not. I didn't want to pierce and do any nonsensical stuff anymore. He once said, "I may smoke and all, but i don't do drugs.". He made me realise something. Actually alot of things. I thought things were gonna turn out well. I didn't wana confessed because i was afraid of his reaction.  I turned down the rest because my heart choose the path to follow him...

Then one day, he somehow changed. I didn't know why and what made him be like that. I was so afraid. I didn't wanna be the one texting him first, because i knew he wasn't who he was (the someone i knew before). I then thought, maybe he wasn't feeling the same towards me. It hurt. I wanted to cry, but the tears won't budge. Mummy said guys are the same. Like my real father who just abandoned me and Amirah. I thought he wasn't. It was really hurting.

If i knew this was gona happen, then i shouldn't have fell for him in the first place. The feeling of falling in love is wonderful. But the thought of going to lose him is painful. Help? Or should i just endure the pain alone. I just hope one day he would text me again, and be the someone i first knew, and would always.

"If your gonna hurt me, don't make me fall for you in the first place."


Goodbye, maryam's dead.
*plays dead*